(via punkanddisorderly)

"I act like I didn't. And I pretended I didn't. But I did. Some nights I'll just lie down in my bed and think of you and cry."

I did not rip that off from anywhere okay! It's a text i sent. So... it's 100% me.

XD

I THINK, it is time i update my blog. I've abandoned it for too long. Way too long. I won't say i've been busy because i haven't. I actually have all the time in the world. That's when laziness sets in. Hehe sorry. Don't worry i'm still alive ;)

Ummmm yeah so where do i begin.

OH. The one thing that happened that caused me to have all this free time in the world.

RETENTION

I keep telling myself it's okay to retain and all. All i need is an extra year. But you don't know how alone i feel in the retainee world.

Okay I actually have so much more to blog about but my.mind.is.blank. Ahh damn it i shall just vlog the rest of the stuff. So lazy to type anws.

xox

PW IS OVERRR! :D

OP went surprisingly smoothly for me. Excluding the questions part. Hahaha. But whatever. For once I was rather calm TALKING in front of an audience. For FIVE minutes.

Before OP itself, I was reminding myself that it's just a performance and I don't really have to be myself to do it. This is one of the rarest times when not being yourself is beneficial ;) So I made up this character I was supposed to be while giving my speech. So she's: calm, confident, friendly, with a likeable personality. I don't know why but I was smiling away like some moron throughout the whole presentation. But it's okay, we are supposed to smile anyway :) And surprisingly I was only slightly nervous during the first minute and after that everything went fine. YAY MY ALTER EGO (Y)

I think I'm starting to freak some of you out now. Hehehe. But like I said, it as more of a performance to speech :)

It's 6AM now and I should go to sleep. Going to the beach with the girls tomorrow! And having lunch with ♥ on Thursday, it's been sooo long. My life is complete.

xox

Cause you're stupid baby, when you're sane

I had like the awesomest weekend ever.

It started on Friday and ended on Monday. Hehe.

Friday: The Social Network with Nanah. Some movie about a bunch of geeks. Smartass geeks from Harvard who party hard. I was seriously wondering how on earth they can party like crazy and still be so freaking smart. I am neither.

Saturday: Just pictures to sum it all up.



Like a little boy oh my god!

I SWEAR, Amirul's the fussiest eater ever. FUSSIEST. Seafood, allergy. Food court, no. Fast food, abs will be gone =__=. Zomg I could go crazy just thinking of places to eat. It's been almost a year and I'm still not used to it. Oh well, good luck to meeeee.

Sunday: We went trick or treating around Alyssa's neighbourhood. It was so fun. First time trick or treating in my 17 years of life. I suffer from a deprived childhood. My costume's kinda screwed up hehehe.






Sarah and I slept over. We watched Confessions of a Shopaholic and slept in the attic. So comfy!

Yup. Awesomest weekend ever.

GOODNIGHT! ♥

By the time I get all these, I'll be dead broke.

Anws, anyone knows where I can get the 2nd one? It's a cardi-blazer kinda thing. EATINGZOMBIE ran out of it. I is sad. Very very sad :(

Too Much

Here's a song i've been falling asleep to for the past few months. Of course there were a few other songs ;)

Here's for you, love.

I admit, I miss seeing your face, babe
Being alone is starting to take it's toll
I'm cold and it's getting old

I admit
I should've made some changes
We were so smothered in love
We didn't have a chance to come up for air

What a waste
Where did the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did our home go?
We won't know
I don't know

Too much of anything
Is too much
Too much of love
Can be too much
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much
Too much

I admit, I'm still watching the days go by
Sleeping alone is starting to break me down
It's cold, but I should've known

I admit
I made a few mistakes, babe
We were so caught up in love
We didn't have a chance to come up for air

What a waste
Where does the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did my heart go?
We'll never know
I'll never know

I need to find a reason to feel
Like everything was meant to be let go
Take it slow
'Cause I can't be on my own

Too much of anything is too much.