Hi. Since I'm writing a song now I actually have something to blog about hehehe.

Songs are like.. personal diaries. You write them when there's nobody else to turn to. It's the only thing that keeps people sane sometimes. Or you can write them when you actually wanna bitch about someone but you don't wanna stoop to a low level by bitching about them behind their backs. So, write a song! That's like killing two birds with one stone. Moral of the story is.. never mess with anyone who writes songs ;)

I have no idea how many songs I've written so far. The last completed song I ever wrote was the one for Returning Ambience. That was in August I think. A long long time ago. When everything was different. So... I currently have 2 half-written songs I've been procrastinating to finish. Sighh h8 my procrastinating habit.

And the thing about me is, I don't know how to play the guitar. So my songs are just lyrics and tunes without any music. Sad :(

OKAY NIGHTS

ICE ICE BABY

I was bored so...

Yeah i wish that's my voice but hell no it isn't. Hahahaha. No matter what i can never be as amazing as...



What else can I say but amazing? This girl, she's beautiful inside and out. She's inspiring. Plus she has her own distinct style, which i love. LIGHTS ♥

I've been procrastinating blogging, alot. Like I said, it's because of all the free time in my hands. Haha. Will post pictures of the class bbq (from like 2/3 weeks ago btw) tomorrow. I'LL TRY! :D

Dance practice tomorrow. And the day after tomorrow. And the day after the day after tomorrow. And it's supposed to be my holidays! D:

Well goodnight! xox

All the right moves

I'm the only one who looks excited and all. Look at that stoned face! So...

ANNOYING!

But still one of the reasons for me to be happy with my life. At least one thing in my life is figured out.

HEE HEE

Anws this showoff video is a must-watch!

Poor me :(

I know we've got it good
But they got it made
And the grass is getting greener each day

I know things are looking up
But soon they'll take us down
Before anybody's knowing our name

xox

(via punkanddisorderly)

"I act like I didn't. And I pretended I didn't. But I did. Some nights I'll just lie down in my bed and think of you and cry."

I did not rip that off from anywhere okay! It's a text i sent. So... it's 100% me.

XD

I THINK, it is time i update my blog. I've abandoned it for too long. Way too long. I won't say i've been busy because i haven't. I actually have all the time in the world. That's when laziness sets in. Hehe sorry. Don't worry i'm still alive ;)

Ummmm yeah so where do i begin.

OH. The one thing that happened that caused me to have all this free time in the world.

RETENTION

I keep telling myself it's okay to retain and all. All i need is an extra year. But you don't know how alone i feel in the retainee world.

Okay I actually have so much more to blog about but my.mind.is.blank. Ahh damn it i shall just vlog the rest of the stuff. So lazy to type anws.

xox

PW IS OVERRR! :D

OP went surprisingly smoothly for me. Excluding the questions part. Hahaha. But whatever. For once I was rather calm TALKING in front of an audience. For FIVE minutes.

Before OP itself, I was reminding myself that it's just a performance and I don't really have to be myself to do it. This is one of the rarest times when not being yourself is beneficial ;) So I made up this character I was supposed to be while giving my speech. So she's: calm, confident, friendly, with a likeable personality. I don't know why but I was smiling away like some moron throughout the whole presentation. But it's okay, we are supposed to smile anyway :) And surprisingly I was only slightly nervous during the first minute and after that everything went fine. YAY MY ALTER EGO (Y)

I think I'm starting to freak some of you out now. Hehehe. But like I said, it as more of a performance to speech :)

It's 6AM now and I should go to sleep. Going to the beach with the girls tomorrow! And having lunch with ♥ on Thursday, it's been sooo long. My life is complete.

xox

Cause you're stupid baby, when you're sane

I had like the awesomest weekend ever.

It started on Friday and ended on Monday. Hehe.

Friday: The Social Network with Nanah. Some movie about a bunch of geeks. Smartass geeks from Harvard who party hard. I was seriously wondering how on earth they can party like crazy and still be so freaking smart. I am neither.

Saturday: Just pictures to sum it all up.



Like a little boy oh my god!

I SWEAR, Amirul's the fussiest eater ever. FUSSIEST. Seafood, allergy. Food court, no. Fast food, abs will be gone =__=. Zomg I could go crazy just thinking of places to eat. It's been almost a year and I'm still not used to it. Oh well, good luck to meeeee.

Sunday: We went trick or treating around Alyssa's neighbourhood. It was so fun. First time trick or treating in my 17 years of life. I suffer from a deprived childhood. My costume's kinda screwed up hehehe.






Sarah and I slept over. We watched Confessions of a Shopaholic and slept in the attic. So comfy!

Yup. Awesomest weekend ever.

GOODNIGHT! ♥

By the time I get all these, I'll be dead broke.

Anws, anyone knows where I can get the 2nd one? It's a cardi-blazer kinda thing. EATINGZOMBIE ran out of it. I is sad. Very very sad :(

Too Much

Here's a song i've been falling asleep to for the past few months. Of course there were a few other songs ;)

Here's for you, love.

I admit, I miss seeing your face, babe
Being alone is starting to take it's toll
I'm cold and it's getting old

I admit
I should've made some changes
We were so smothered in love
We didn't have a chance to come up for air

What a waste
Where did the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did our home go?
We won't know
I don't know

Too much of anything
Is too much
Too much of love
Can be too much
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much
Too much

I admit, I'm still watching the days go by
Sleeping alone is starting to break me down
It's cold, but I should've known

I admit
I made a few mistakes, babe
We were so caught up in love
We didn't have a chance to come up for air

What a waste
Where does the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did my heart go?
We'll never know
I'll never know

I need to find a reason to feel
Like everything was meant to be let go
Take it slow
'Cause I can't be on my own

Too much of anything is too much.

LOOK WHO'S GOT LONG HAIR NOWWW

Haha fake onlyyy. Long wavy hair can be really really troublesome man. Especially when you have short hair now ;) It's okayyy when my hair grows i'm gonna perm it so i don't have to kill my hair with heat like, everytime i go out?

I know, i've changed alot. i used to swear by straight hair. But well, i grew up. hehe.

And naah this hair isn't permanent. Only for dressy uppy days.

SHORT STRAIGHT HAIR FTW! :D

The fake scenes, the plastic-made dreams.

With the exception of me possibly retaining, my life is complete :)

<3

I freaking aww-ed at this.

I ♥ TUMBLR TUMBLR TUMBLR.

Shall post Tumblr obsessions next time, when i'm less uhhhh, preoccupied? Definitely less preoccupied.

And oh yes, do NOT ask me how my Econs and GP paper went. I already feel like promos are over tho. Hehe.

There's so much time to figure out the rest of our lives.

The reason why i'm here blogging is because i'm printing some shit i was supposed to print months ago. Hehe. I am prolly the most undisciplined JC kiddo around.

I'm getting stressed up because i'm not feeling the stress at all yet and promos is in just 3 days. AND I HAVE NOT YET STARTED STUDYING.

And i don't know why i don't even care.

I don't wanna retain, i don't wanna go to poly, i don't even wanna be a J2.

Party this Friday. Sounds good but i'll feel super guilty. After A-levels, i'm gonna party my life away (:

For now, FUCK MY LIFE.

School is the cause of all this mess.

Sometimes I wonder what we're all studying so hard for. To the point where we sacrifice sleep, quality time with loved ones, LIFE.

Even after University, we'll get jobs and will be working damn hard for the rest of our lives just so we can afford our materialistic needs.

And then we die.

So what's the point of life, exactly?

We've been here before.

One day I was so bored with my life (LOL) and wanted to do something different. So my sister and I went out to take pics one day. Editing pictures now. Here's a sneaky peek:




My editing skills suck. Someone, HELP!

Okay I'm acting like I don't have promos in less than 3 weeks. HELP!!!!!!

D:

So why don't we go somewhere only we know?

Haven't been blogging at all. Believe me when i say i don't have the time. I don't even know where the time went. Half the time i'm in my own world XD

So it was hari raya like 3 days ago.

Selamat hari raya! Forgive me for anything i've said or done okay! ♥

Oh, before i post pictures, i would like to tell you guys that i'm officially a pussy. I was supposed to audition for the UK trip but i backed out cause we were supposed to do a 3-minute speech and i'm really bad at speeches and cause there were so many people auditioning for it and a lot of them are really good so i didn't wanna waste time writing my speech. But guess what? Everyone who auditioned for it from my class got in. Regret. Regreeeeet. I could be getting excited right now to go to UK in December. I'm sucha weener i swear. Oh wells i'll make up for it. And i'm gonna try going for next year's UK trip :)

Okay pictures!










And then there's Duxton. Coolest place ever omg. Here's the view from the window at night:


Sky Garden of Duxton:


And i'm so proud of this pic. A picture of my sister before she fell. So funny XD




Yup. More next time :)