Shadows swim
I hear them laughing at the state I'm in
Their eyes keep staring and they just won't quit
And they just whisper your name

I know i said i'm not as clueless as some people think i am, but this time i really am. I feel like i did something wrong but i have no freaking idea what.

Maybe i don't even wanna know either.

Maybe i shouldn't have started talking to you months ago.

HI IT'S 7:35 ON A SUNDAY MORNING. AND LOOK AT THE SKYYY!

It's prettier than that in real life i swear. Okay so i haven't been to bed yet. LOL. I will right after this post.

So there's so many freaking things to blog about i don't even know where to start. Okay i actually forgot a few. But anws, had teachers' day performance like twice this week and we were kinda satisfied. Eventho we didn't do as good as rehearsals but it's okay! (:








♥

And YOG ended, and it means that Croatia guy is leavinggg :( But it's okay cause Alyssa and i are gonna migrate to Croatia hehehe.

The Polish people came to our school on Wednesday. And while we were having practice one of the guys came and ask me if they could dance with us rofl it was damn funny. But all i could care about was getting the steps perfect cause performance was the next day so i didn't bother much. I DIDN'T EVEN SEE HIS FACE. Trying to psycho myself that he wasn't cute. Not caring even about Polish guys. Croatian guys ftw. No, Crotia guy ftw (Y) So cute okay: blue eyes, nice hair, swimmer. Okay i'm getting sadder and sadder now.

Shall go sleep now before i whine more.

GOOD MORNING AND GOOD' DAY!

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

In econs today, i was thinking about how much i hate school. And I was planning escape plans. Hehehe.

I have so much to blog about but maybe next time.

I'm so.fucking.tired.

Hate is a strong word, but I really really really don't like school.

Did nothing the whole weekend, school-wise. I am seriously gonna die.

Stayed up the whole night yesterday. Planned to do homework but nooo. I ended up tumblr-ing, texting, talking on the phone for a bit, facebooking and everything else but homework.

OH WELL THAT'S JUST ME.

It's funny how when someone's there, you take them for granted.
But when they leave, there's this huge hole in your life. You miss them like crazy.

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Sick of homework, homework, and more homework. So jealous of people I know who have like soundchecks, gigs, or whatever else everyday. Instead of homework. And being stuck in school. And wanting to get out.

Was at Baybeats today. The bands were awesomeee. The music were goood. Local bands are (Y). The only reason why they're moving nowhere is because most of us don't support them. I know of people who hate local bands, I don't even know why. If we don't support them, who would?

Tuls and I wanted to stalk An Honest Mistake. HEHE. They were awesome okay. And they were walking right infront of us ^^

Talking about local bands, have you seen R(a)'s music video yet?



LOL i find it funny somehow. But (Y). That's shaun, suraj, jian liang and aaron for you. The band is a 5-member band noww. Plus weihao (bombom). Why do i feel like i'm promoting them? Hahahahaha. And yup that's the song i was writing lyrics to.

I don't know why my dad's so bothered by who i'm chatting with early in the morning. I'm too old for that. I was talking to the most annoying person ever btw. HAHAHAHAHA. Okay i'm just as annoying. Tehehe.

Well okay me is gonna sleep now.

"I wish I could gay marry my hot fucking self"

HAHAHAHAHA.

Nerd at work

Uh, yeah.

That's how i left my house today. Sighhh if only i can be as nerdy as i actually look.

Unedited versions. Will edit them when i have the time :D

TIME TO SLEEP TEHEHEHEE

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long

Photographs and gasoline

Today was a goooood day!

Went to Scape with buffo at noon, and then we saw The Click Five. We just happened to be there while they were there. We couldn't be bothered much anyways but yeah, we saw them (: And after that Jenny got stuck in my head. Because we came just in time for their last song. Hehe. Oh and Kyle Patrick really reminded me of Robert Pattinson. Like when we first came i was wondering why there was a vampire up on stage. Okay so after that we went to the flea. The flea was pretty good but it was so freaking stuffy we didn't have the mood to go around. So in the end i just got a top and a gold+black bracelet :(

Went for PW meeting after that at the airport and oh my god try sitting in the middle of Coffee Bean when you're fasting. The earthquakes in my tummy got worst i tell you.

Yup so i might be going shopping tomorrow because i am seriously running out of clothes. And there's 3 CAs this week, and i haven't studied for any of them yet. But studying for CAs = NOT ME.

You know i'm starting to realise that the exams i can really study for are only major exams. Like O' levels. Yes, not even prelims. No matter how hard i try, the full concentration is never there. So uhh, let's just hope a miracle happens and i pass my promos. Then i promise i will study really hard for A's.

Well that's me for you :)

People just don't get me and the way i do things but i don't think they even have to. Plus i'm kinda happy the way i am. Imagine me being all responsible and careful and stuff. Oh my god it just won't feel right.

Me = messy, clumsy, irresponsible, a walking disaster.

That's what you get when my mom stumbled down a flight of steps while i was in her tummy XD

Seventeen

Oh my god all 127 of you ♥

I swear i have the best people around me!

And i'm thankful for all of you. Every.single.one.of.you

(inserts a thousand and one hearts)

Last night i was supposed to do my eom but i got distracted due to the sudden flooding of notifications/vibrating phone/msn. LOL. Soo the first person to wish me last night was bombom. Countdown somemore hahahaha! So funny how the person i've known the shortest was the first person to wish me. Like a week? Oh wellllll. And then my phone started to flood and i'm so sorry for the late reply you guys, i had to delete old texts to make way for the new texts. Muff wished me first and then Isya and then Tulika and somemore after that. YAY HEART THEM ALL! ♥ :D

And i feel like an idiot typing "thank you" repeatedly on facebook but oh wellll for them i'll risk looking like an idiot. tehehehe

Okay gonna sleep now birthday over already.

GOODNIGHT! :D

Today, i felt pretty ugly.

Just another one of those days.

But it's worst today because i already feel ugly even before stepping out of my house. Usually it's right after i step out when i compare myself to everyone else out there. I am not diagnosed with any mental illness whatsoever but i'm certain i have some insecurity disorder or something like that. And for some of you who don't even know shit and assume shit, leave me alone. I don't edit the LIGHTING of my pictures to look pretty. I edit it to hide imperfections. And i repeat, LIGHTING only. I don't own photoshop so i don't edit my features like my eyes, my nose, my mouth, my chin or whatever. I don't even want to. I kinda like my features teehee :) Well i guess i'll have to do something about my skin complexion real soon.

And if you don't know what i mean by lighting,


it's that okay. The bottom right is the original. Seeeee, no changes in features.

Okay whatever. Went to watch fireworks with Isya just now! We've been spending the past National Days together i realized. Hehehe yay ♥



Felt pretty girly today, cause of the outfit and shit. Okay that's not even girly. That's woman-y.

Okay so here are the freaking beautiful fireworks, and silhouette of the tree...






So pretty omg!

Can we pretend that fireworks in the night sky are like exploding stars?
I could really use a wish right now.

I'm made wax, Larry, what are you made of?

It's 4:39AM and i haven't even started on my "holiday" homework. Procrastination at its best (Y)

I shall not blog about how happy i am because whenever i do, i'll be unhappy after that. Tehehehehe. Okay not happy when i'm hungry, which is nowww.

But hunger pangs > PMS

I'd rather eat until i become fat then have suicidal thoughts planted in my head thank you. Like i was super hungry the whole of last week. One day, i had porridge in the morning. And when i reached school i was complaining to liyana about how hungry i was. Then i ate during break and after like an hour i got hungry again. What is this you tell me!

And these girls....


they're freaking cute oh my god. They were planning for my birthday celebration when i was sitting at the same table as them! Okay fine i was sleeping but still. I pretty much know what was going on. Hahaha so funny. But thank you girls for a super advanced birthday dinner! My birthday isn't even here yet! And complete clique picture finally ♥

Meeting up with Isya and Shahirah tmrw tehehehe after so long! Fireworks fireworks fireworks! :)

OH OH OH, happy birthday Singapore! You annoy me at times especially cause of the pressure you exert on students here and the high expectations of everyone but oh well there's no safer place in the world. I'll still try to break up with you as soon as possible. Hehehe.

But for now i'm still stuck here. It's already close to 6 and how's my homework going? Stagnant. I.AM.SUCH.A.FAILURE.

And if you haven't seen the video yet...



I need autotune omg.

I.AM.SUCH.A.FAILURE x2

I shall blog before i lose my train of thoughts. Heh

I actually got tix to see Katy Perry on Monday but i thought it was on Tuesday so i missed it! Tulika and i were so ready to skip school okay! We shall just pretend it didn't happen. I never got the tix. It was all a dream (:

The first time being in a studio with Returning Ambience was kinda fun. I'm still partially deaf tho. It was super loud, i couldn't even hear myself! I thought i sucked and maybe i did. I seriously couldn't hear myself so i wouldn't know. And after that my ears stopped functioning properly. I had to go like HUH a lot of times even tho the streets were really quiet. Sooo there'll be a second time but until then i'll have to add power to my voice. I have no idea how i'm gonna do that.

And i swear they are awesome people!

soooo..

i'm still having flu and sore throat. haha so gonna die tmrw. and if you ask me, i think the chances i have of making it is really very low. and i try to comfort myself by reminding myself that everyone can sing, but not everyone can write songs. but the vocals are like the most important thing and what chances do i have?

oh wellz, i'm gonna do my best and have fun while i'm at it.

for a pessimist, i'm pretty optimistic ;)

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.

I've always wondered why I was so dumb to keep on going back to you no matter how many times you've hurt me. I guess I know why now. I'm turning into the same dumb girl I was years ago. Maybe, just maybe.