the next few days will be freaking packed.

friday: school + dance practice
saturday: PTC + the girls coming over + going out after that
sunday: rush all weekend homework
monday: school + STAR + band trial
tuesday: see katy perry live! (maybe if i decide to skip school)

MLIA = my life is average ^^

sadly, i'm not going for singfest. suck eggggs.

and i'm somehow excited plus nervous for monday. i have no idea why. i can be weird like that.

This is practically where we live now. This is all we do now.

HATE SCHOOL. HATE THE FUCKING RULES.

enough said.

this whole thing is just a rant about school, so don't read if you don't want to.

you know, i left my house 20 minutes earlier than my usual timing today and i was almost still late. but i took cab so i wasn't. but i can't take a freaking cab to school every freaking day. that's madness.

and yesterday, there was a hugeass traffic jam outside school and like 200plus people were late and guess what? the bloody damn school booked everyone of them. those who stepped into school at least. some people would rather wait for hours at the polyclinic every single day they're "late" than get suspended ^^

and somehow the germs got to me and now i'm really sick!

okay so point is, everyday i either spend $ on mc or cab just to keep my record clean and i'm so sick of it. and i don't think i'm the only one who does that.

and i know i said this so many times before but i really mean it,

JC life isn't cut out for me. the only reason why i'm here is because i don't know what i want to do in polytechnic yet, and i feel like this is the only place i can be. so either way i'm just stuck here. what choice do i have?

this school fucking screwed my life up and sometimes i just feel like quitting. i really do.

anws if you're more like me and you're still in secondary school, do not go to a jc. ESPECIALLY TPFUCKINGJC.

I just got myself into a whole load of shit

how on earth am i supposed to write lyrics for 3 songs + dance practice + school stuffs all at the same time?

i have no freaking idea.

but i want this. more than anything.

currently listening to love the way you lie. i really shouldn't be listening to any songs while writing cause it'll somehow affect the way i write. and it's of a different genre, and i'll fuck their song up pretty bad. but whateverz.

plus i'm damn worried. we all know my vocals aren't that strong. pretty sucky actually. i really need to steal someone else's voice!

MUAHAHA VOICE STEALER ^^

But that's alright because i love the way you lie,

now watch this....

and this..

and this

aw :(

HAHAHA i told you i'm the bored-est kid alive.

oh, today we had so much fun during pe. we were playing captains ball under the hot sun, rolled in goalposts, and failed soccer with remus not even knowing how to play soccer. sometimes i still feel like i'm in a girls school XD

Just one of those days

Today, i was the bored-est kid alive.

I refused to wake up and ended up waking up at 4pm. But there was still nothing to do after that, besides homework but ew? So i just lazed around plus eat plus watch tv. That is seriously all i did today.

It's 11:30PM, super early but i would really really like to sleep now because i bet my dreams are much more interesting. But noooo, i have freaking gp essay to do. I'm starting to get really really annoyed by teachers. Freaking homework, freaking deadlines.

I'm just staring at my gp question paper.

"Traditional values are of little merit today. I agree. The arguments are obvious. Look around you. Bye"

That is what i freaking feel like writing down okay! So fucking annoying. I want to sleep and homework's keeping me in reality.

Once upon a Tuesday afternoon
while others were doing geography homework, and i was supposed too..

explains my results lol

even therapy can't help me :|

HI EVERYONE PLEASE READ THIS
especially if you're from my school.

I am gonna say this for the last time, I DO NOT LIKE ANYBODY CURRENTLY.

Not blah or blahblah or blahblahblah.

Okay with the exception of ____ but he doesn't know I exist so.. yup.

I'm aware of more things than you think I am. But I pretend not to because it'll just be awkward.

And sometimes I really don't know what to do. If I ignore anyone I'll just feel really bad but if I don't I'll feel like I'm leading them on.

SO WHAT THE HELL DO I DO YOU TELL ME?

It's been driving me crazy k, crazy!

Besides, I really like certain people but only as friends. So ignoring is not an option.

I told you I should turn lesboz. It'll solve all my problems. Every freaking one.

Sorry but I think it's about time I do this, to set things straight. And not attempt to spread outdated news that I'm dating someone. That was just a fail.

Maybe this will help me know who my true friends are too. Cause if you're really a friend, you'll still stick around.

I just need a bit more time to get you off my mind tonight.



After this post, I swear the past week will cease to exist.

I'm proven that I'm not so paranoid and insecure after all! My doubts were confirmed and so I WAS RIGHT. I've been right all along :) I just chose to ignore the warnings in my head.

And this honey, this goes out to you.

Okay so I'm done with that.

Person #2: I don't reply to you because I don't wanna end up saying things I'll regret. If that makes me a bad person, okay. Good luck with school.
Person #3: Stop telling everyone I'm your girlfriend. Or shit like that.
Person #4: Please stop thinking everything is about you.

Whateverz I'm just gonna turn lesboz OR continue obsessing over ____. Okay obsess isn't the word. I don't know what is.

This is gonna be freaking anti-climax but I passed my 2.4km run hehehehe (:

GOODNIGHT ♥

Yesterday, we went to a flea!

Flash light battery or something like that, at Scape. Scape fleas are so fucking awesome I tell you.

I saw a leather jacket at a reasonable price and quality and I don't know what I was thinking, I didn't get it. And now I'm regretting every single bit of it. REGRETTT, k? Pfft. Oh wells at least I got like orange sneakers hehehe :)

But I'm still finding something equivalent to it and I won't sleep in peace until I do!

Tulz and I have no life. We're always roaming around places when we should be home uhh, doing homework? LOL. But don't worry I'm the biggest no-lifer of them all (:

Oh and we were supposed to do the shoot but we found out that one photo costs like $45 which is freaking ridiculous. So being nice, considerate people, we decided not to waste their time and not do it. Since we're not gonna buy the photos anw. Even though the person working there told us to just go for it. But naaaaah.

And here are Tulika's and Larz' reactions


Her name is Hilarie btw but I like calling her Larz and she feels like a boy everytime I call her that. HEHEHE HI LARRY :D

Yup so I'm done here. 1:30AM. School later.

My sister's snoring like a dinosaur, sigh. I swear she sleeps unglamly.

GOODNIGHT ♥

I won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
Won't tell anyone how your voice is my favorite sound.
Won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody.

♥

Until I'm sure this will last.

So follow me down, out of this town ♥

I don't know whaddup with you guys. When i have negative posts the number of blog views go up like crazy. It shows just how people like others to be miserable. HAHA.

PICNIC WITH THE GIRLS!




OUR RAINBOW CUPCAKEZXZ :D



I was 2 hours late because I seriously had nothing to wear plus I got lost along the way. LOL. I was raping my mom's closet cause I seriously ran out of clothes (yes I'm aware I said raping and not raiding). I even tried wearing my daddy's but it was too stuffy. Sighs, I'm a living example of what Lookbook does to you. Like if I don't know what to wear, I'll be like, "oooh let's get inspiration from lookbook!" Yeaaah.

So I was wearing my mom's tee AND my dad's belt. HAHAHA. And my own shorts and sneakers XD Pretty weird outfit I should say.

GOODNIGHT ♥ :)

HI MY NON-EXISTENT SELF-ESTEEM JUST WENT DOWN MORE

BET IT'S LIKE NEGATIVE THOUSAND NOW OR SOMETHING

Today, i'm pretty sure there's something wrong with the whole world. Like really really wrong. Or maybe if i step out of my freaking fairytale where there's no h8, i'll get used to it.

Remember when i said i'm just average?

Well actually i'm not even fucking average.

I'm below average. WAY BELOW AVERAGE.

I only exist in this world to make everyone feel good about themselves when they compare themselves to me.

Well, at least it'll make them happy :)

And i'm freaking tempted to smash the mirror now. Mother freaking tempted.

Today in the blink of an eye, I'm holding on to something and I do not know why.

HAHA my freedom is so.freaking.short-lived. It's now partially gone.

I OUGHT TO BE KILLED.

But I did say partially. K just a small proportion. BUT STILL!

I bet nobody knows what I'm blabbering about. Oh wellz all of you will know sooner or later, maybe.

I don't even know if there's an "all of you". I don't know who reads this shit anymore.

Okay whatever. Today, Larz and I went to Sarah's house and we baked rainbow cupcakes and cakes. And they turned out so freaking pretty :) I didn't really see the final product tho.

I watched The Runaways yesterday and it was freaking awesome. Like so freaking awesome. And then I started checking out the band and omg they're good. Although I'm decades too late.

I'm your ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch, CHERRY BOMB.

These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections - sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent - that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events that my death wrought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous body had been my life.

Liyana and I watched The Lovely Bones at my place just now. It was freaking awesome like really really. If you haven't watched it yet, watch it! (:

SO EXAMS ARE OVER! :DD

And I'm so looking forward to the weekends.

Which starts tomorrow (ok technically today) and ends on monday.

HEHEHE

:)